Where to go?????

So I have been checking out other wards to go to since they have released me from my calling and taken both my home and visiting teachers away. I guess it is their HINT to me to leave the ward because I am too old. I went to a single adult ward last Sunday and the family ward today.

The single's ward was really weird! It is supposed to be 31-45 years old but I swear that there were older people there! One lady was in a motorized chair and most of the men were bald or have gray hair!!!! I definately looked like the youngest one there!!! It is even worse than the young single adult ward in aspects of dating. Don't they realize that when we get this old we know what we are supposed to do?!?!?!? We don't have to be constantly reminded of what our dating life should be! One of the announcements from that ward was that as ONE of our "DATING STRATEGIES" we should be attending all the dances. And...I guess to "get into" the ward you have to say that you are willing to date a lot. What does that mean? You have to go out with everyone who asks you? Or you should be on a date at least X amount of times a week? My goodness!!!!! I did meet some nice down to earth people there, thank goodness!

The family ward was o.k. The people were "normal" so that was nice. The two things that I hate about the family ward are I feel like everyone and their cute families are rubbing it in my face because that is all I have ever wanted and the kids are so loud that I have a hard time concentrating! I know that it is not anyone's intent on making me feel sad that I am not married or have any children, but I do feel jelous. And I know jelousy is not from God, but that is how I feel. I am tring to change that. It is also hard because they constintly talk about family, which is great and an essential part of the church, but it doesn't make it any easier for me!

I am confused because I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. Sorry, I am just venting!